oh rayA

x sabarnye nak raye!!!!

Ramadhan has finally come to its end.

last Ramadhan.

very sad.oh,x mahu!!

last Syawal in Malaysia.

make most of it.

akankah ini yg terbaik??

mahu ke sana berjumpe.tapi apakan daya.

oh sedih.

Ramadhan,bakalkah kita berjumpa tahun hadapan?

InsyaAllah.Moga Allah panjangkan umur ibadahku.

Amiin~

:)

do you hear me talking to you

across the water

across the deep blue ocean

under the open sky

oh my baby I'm trying

boy I hear you in my dreams

I feel you whisper across the sea

I keep you with me in my heart

You're making it easier when life gets hard



LUCKY I'm in love..........

;)

updates

past few days was frigging bz..

went to seremban 2 days back to break fast at tcr niryati's house.

then the next day accompanied tumi to college to meet the teachers for the last time.

then at 10 am got on bus,headed to kl.

arrived at CM almost 11.30.peluk2 cium2 salam2 tumi,wished her gudluck and all,then we separated.oh,actually i was wif dilos..

then,this is the best part!!pegi shopping di sogo(tmpt sale sepanjang thn)..

omg,rase nak rembat je sume.but then,money isn't sufficient of course.lame gle shoping!from 12 till 3..huhu..got myself 4 shirt n blouses and a pair of jeans.thx to dilos my image consultant.haha.then met hid for a while,sembang2,3.30 gerak to masjid india for zuhur prayer then balik umah berbuka.

mlm tu pengsan while accompanying dilos watching GG.seda2 da pg..huhu..

afta subuh prayer,slept till 11..siap2,then kuar plak gi OU..i went to alter my jeans at Levi's then dilos bought her first pair of Levi;s there.huhu..

went to Vincci to find a pair of heels.found two,i was so indecisive!dua2 pon nak!then dilos swoh amek the first one.wait till afta raya,i'll go back to vincci to get the other one..hehe :P

oh,sgt susa thn nafsu xpecially when its sale rite now.bodo tol!kene sabar!wait till dec n i'll get those!!!huwaaaaa,if only i had plennnnttttttyyyy of money~~~~~~

finally i can cut off some items from my wish list..
thx daddy for the money :)

p/s:boring boring boring
x sabar nak blk kg jumpe all my relatives!!!!

kesweetan

sweetnye lagu secondhand serenade,fall for u.

tho part of the song doesn't go wif it,tp sgt sweetttt..

wahai hati,bersabarlah.

insyaAllah 1 hari akan ketemu akhirnya si indah di melbourne itu :))

iftar jami'e

semalam berbuka puasa di rumah mak ngah.

my family has this tradition yg xtaula bile mulanya.

every yr,when ramadhan comes,every weekend the big families wud hold jamuan berbuka.

the first weekend of ramadhan,was abg yie's.

the next weekend was our turn.sumpah penat!huhu.but it was fun.

yesterday was at mak ngah like i mentioned before.it was fun.buke pose ramai2.stuffed our stomachs wif scrumptious foooooddddd~ ade sup tulang,paprik,kerabu mangga,sambal belacan,etc etc..

did i mention i have a biggggg family?ye sgt besar,n everyone is talkative n shud i say hyper?haha.ye,sgt hyper!juz imagine almost 50ppl cramped in a house.juz imagine how loud cud it be.huhu.

after iftar,solat n cleaning up,session kedua.minum kopi,eating desserts(moist choc cake!!!sedap gils!) n sembang2.dis is my fav part.where sume pon nak ckp,full wif laughters.all,tho they're not eating wud b at the dinner table juz to talk talk talk,listen n laugh.

so smlm kua la psl encik nazu(abg sedara br blk from korea for gud) try ngorat sorang pompuan ni.the conversation goes,'Assalamualaikum,bleh berkenalan?'.the girl replied,'x bleh!'.' Takbleh,xpela',nazu said..ha amek ko!hahahahahhahahah...n more stories showing how gatal the guys in our family are.oh mcm2..i never have expected they wud be so gatal n outspoken as well.

n the penyakit gatal da berjangkit to aiman(anak buah,5yrs old)..afta he took his bath in the evening,he ran out naked and asked,'girl mane?girl mane?'..haha,bunguks punye budak kecik.he actually was looking for my cousin's friends(girls la for sure) which happened to not be there(went to bazaar)..n when his pok mi nak peluk,he said,'boy dgn boy mana bleh peluk.boy dgn girl boleh'..hehe :P

oh,i'm damn sure i'll be missing this at oz nnt..like a lot!!uwaaaaaaaaaaa :'(

p/s::thx to the wonderful family i have.u guys made it so enjoyable :) <3

merajok?

distance has totally grown us apart.

i didnt know that u were so sensitive.

since when ni haaa???

i thot ungkit2 wif joking tones was ok for u,it was alwiz ok for u before,xtaula plak bile u da x ske..

ann arbor has changed u, a lot!by any means.

n i'm sorry,truly sorry..

p/s:chillis ke,nasi goreng ke,doesnt rili matter la...

my wish list

kelmarin was so boring.paksa tido but then still x bleh,so decided to list the things i really want before i went off for oz(mcmla da dekat sgt.haha)

here goes.

1. new anak tudung
2. tudung munawwarah(sengal mahal gle!)
3. tudung banyak2 kaler n patterns
4. new shirts n blouses
5. at least 2 pair of new jeans
6. crocs loafer
7. crocs slip-on
8. clarks peep-toe(oh ini sgt hendak!!!)
9. 2 new heels(black n white)
10. new flip-flop :D
11. sneakers/sportshoes
12. sockssss to go with the shoes
13. new handbag(black or white,if mampu nak both)
14. sweater
15. shades
16. baju kurung
17. keronsang
18. new telekung
19. etc etc etc

i need funds!haha,manela nak cekau duit nak beli byk2 ni..shopping raye pon x mampu.mengong.so if anybody out there nak wat pahala,sedekah2 la duit pd insan yg memerlukan ini.hehe...

seriously,i need almost 2k for all the things.adoimakla,after my 2 students seat for their pmr,i rili need to go out n find a job.2 months of working shud b enuff kot utk membeli belah.hopefully i can stick wif the job.3 months wud b better..pastu ak shopping sampai parents ak pon juling mata.haha :P

oh btw,yesterday i mintak duit wif my dad to shop for hari raya.he asked me 'nk beli ape?'
i replied la,'jeans,shirts,shoes etc'.n then he replied,'jeans?tu bkn pakaian org pompuan!'
amek ko sebijik.panas gak dgr..'agak2 abes seribu?',he said.pastu ngan slamber ak jwb,'amboi,perli nampak?'mls lyn tros tgk tv.da gaya cam xnk bg.

tbe2 pas saho,'nak shopping ke?abah bg 200 cukup?ke nak brape?'..tau cuak ak majuk.huhu

i replied,'ikut ske la'..its not like if i asked 500 u wud have given kan?

adik spent almost 500 for his soooo called raya stuffs,u didnt say a word plak kan?how fair is dat?haha,then i realized,nothing is fair nowadays kan.the favourite one alwiz gets more.

apela,its not like u're going to spend on me the next rayassss to come.for heaven sake,dis wud b my last raya in mesia,y cant it be the best,most spendable raya?

to those budak2 kecik out there.spend while u can.coz when u grow older,u dun get to perabis ur parents' money anymore.(its not like any budak kecik wud read this bloggy thing,bt then luahan rasa)..oh this is suck.





the clarks peep-toe







p/s:take dat car n u'll ruin ur study.i bet on dat!

jatuh chenta

i fall for u again today,beauty..

thx

:)

card

today i received a card from a friend of mine.

he asked my full name last few days,instead he put 'triffle maker' as the receiver.

sumpah lawak weh!i laughed hysterically tau x?*exaggerate mode*

seriously 100 bekas?fine,ak wat ak anta make sure ko baya? :P

oh btw,ur writing mmg cm2 ke??

:D

neways,thanx syafiq n shazwani n family~

slmt hari raya too.

maaf zahir dan batin :)

pee/ass:ur company's name reminds me of Teluk Ramunia.No wonder it sounds familiar the first time u told me.

i wonder

y did u have to say those words?

u knew it wud hurt me a lot,but u juz cudn't help urself kan??

uttering those words wudnt make any good,things became worse.

the worst to come,we didnt talk for 5 days already.

great,juz great!!

thot it wud b the best last ramadhan.

now its juz the last ramadhan.

p/s:i'm wounded.a sorry from u wud be the med.

februari

cptla dtg wahai februari.

agar diri ini makin hampir.

hampir ke situ.

ke bumi Melbourne.

agar dapat kita bertemu akhirnya.

amiin~~

yg indah

ade yg indah br kujumpa.

ade yg indah mau ku jumpa.

ade yg indah menanti di sana.

ade yg indah di bumi Melbourne.

akankah aku ke sana bertemu mu wahai si indah?

akan adakah jodoh dan rezeki kita utk bertemu wahai yg terlalu indah?

i'll be there every single holiday i could.i promise,si indah :)

dedicated specially for you si indah <3

anger

i'm mad

i'm furious

dunno whether it wud heal..

wud it??

tell me,y do u alwiz have to hurt me wif ur words?

y?

n i keep on crying as days go by..................................................

ak rindu

ak rndu ukhwah ini wahai sahabat.

ak rndu pada kalian.

ak rndu ukhwah krn Allah ini.

akan adakah persahabatan seindah ini buat kita pd masa hadapan?

doaku hanya satu,'Ya Allah,kekalkan ukhwah ini buat kami...."




ak rndu,rndu,rndu..............

secebis rasa

Dgn Nama Allah Yang Maha Pemurah Lagi Maha Pengasihani

ingin ak berkongsi secebis rasa hati ini.smlm tatkala solat sunat tarawih,entah mengapa hati ini sgt sayu.sungguh syahdu bacaan imam itu.tanpa ak sedari,kelopak mataku bergenang air mata.ak cuba tahan,tp x mampu.lalu mengalirlah air mataku.ak hayati bacaannya walaupun kurang memahami maksudnya.

selesai tarawih,ak solat witir.selesai witir,ak tadah tgn berdoa pada-Nya.berdoa utk kesejahteraan semua.ak terfikir,pd thn hadapan,mungkinkah ak akan bertemu lg dgn Ramadhan?mungkinkah masih ada kesempatan mengamalkan solat jemaah?mungkinkah hati ini masih sarat cinta kepada-Nya?atau diri ini sudah tidak kenal dosa dan pahala?atau diri ini bergelumang dosa?atau diri ini sibuk mengejar duniawi?nauzubillah!!!!!ak jd takut.ak menangis.kuatkah ak utk berada di sana??tebalkah iman ak utk menepis godaan2 yg amat berat di sana?ak tidak tahu........masa dpn hanya milik Allah...sapela ak utk mengetahuinya..ak takut yg amat sgt..ak x mau kehilangan kemanisan iman dan Islam ini.2 nikmat yg paling besar ini..

ak smp terfikir,benarkah keputusan yg ak ambil ini..?benarkah jln ini yg terbaik buat ak..?ak tidak tahu,ttpi gerak hati ini masih ingin ak meneruskannya..boleh jd kerana ia terbaik buat ak,boleh jd ini sume hanya nafsu utk merasa berada di negara asing..

"Ya Allah,hidupkanlah ak dlm iman,matikanlah ak dlm iman,masukkanlah ak ke dlm syurgaMu dgn iman"

ak bersyukur,Allah amat menyayangiku..saban tahun,Dia tempatkan ak ke tmpt yg lebih baik dr sebelumnya..dr MRSM PDRM ke MRSM Taiping kemudian ke KMS..setiap kali ak berpindah,ak berpindah ke tmpt yg lebih baik..ak bersyukur,alhamdulillah..Di KMS,ak bertemu dgn sahabat2 yg ak kira sahabat dunia akhirat..mrk yg x penah jemu melayan kerenah ak..yg same2 meramaikan surau..yg x pnh jemu memberi ak ilmu..yg x pnh jemu mengajak ak berqiam,sehingga ak akhirnya mengamalkannya..yg x pernah bosan mendengar masalahku..mrk yg apabila ak melakukan kesalahan,x prnh takut menegurku..dan ak apabila ditegur mereka x pernah rasa malu atau terhina..malah ak rase kasih syg dlm teguran mereka..mereka yg menerima ak seadanya walaupun ak kurang sempurna berbanding mereka..ye,ak x pnh rasa tersisih dgn mereka..ak bahagia..

dan sekarang,pilihan uni ak x same dgn mereka..ak kehilangan mereka..mampukah ak Ya Allah.?Ak buat keputusan tanpa mengambil kira sesiapa,namun sama dgn 'dia'..ak berdoa utk tidak sama dgn'nya',krn ak takut ak x mmpu.tp kenapa Ya Allah?mampukah ak Ya Allah?ak smp terfikir utk mengubah keputusan utk lari..namun suatu ari,tgh membelek Quran........

"Tetapi boleh jadi kamu tidak menyenangi sesuatu,padahal itu baik bagimu,dan boleh jd kamu menyukai sesuatu,padahal itu tidak baik buatmu.Allah mengetahui,sedangkan kamu tidak mengetahui"

Ya,Allah lebih mengetahui..perancangan Allah itu lebih baik..insyaAllah~

p/s: post ini bkn utk tujuan apa2.sekadar berkongsi rasa.........

longkang

juz now was like very kelam kabut to go to the mosque sbb da azan.

my dad left me sbb lambat.hehe..yelaaa,guys dont do the dishes kan.pas mkn tros tgl!

i drove to the mosque alone.mom was very sleepy so she decided not to go.

tgh gelabah drive coz imam da stat smyg,parking pon gelabah.with just 1 trial i managed to park perfectly.not rili la..hehe

turned out to be my tyres nearly masuk longkang!!!it was like 2 inches je lg.alhamdulillah i didnt turn left lg..hehe..oh but i didnt straighten my steering.

tym to go back.i pressed the accelerator not remembering my steering is not straightened!tbe2 keta makin ke kiri.glabah gle kau!i cud feel my heart beats accelerate!then dgn gelabah tros pull the steering to the right.and alhamdulillah x masuk longkang!klo x,masuk longkang la jwbnye keta tu.....my dad wud be furious!huhu...

pengajaran:jgn gelabah tatkala memandu!igtla org yg tersayang :D

gone,all gone

this is 1 of the consequences when u dont really go out during ur 8 months' holiday:

--> u end up losing ur favourite GAP jeans the 3rd month.

bodoh!didnt rili notice till last 2 days.thot it got stuck in someone else's closet.i've searched the entire house,no sign of it at all.sedihnye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!must be stolen when it is hung to dry outside.bia pencuri tu gatal2 bontot klo pakai!kene kurap tros!

i had 2 jeans,n it was my favourite..berita ini amat menyedihkan sy..abah,ganti jeans GAP yah!! :'(

n that stupid brother of mine borrowed my pendrive,n he returned it wif damages.he lost the cap,the body is no strong enuff,i mean the circuit board in it went out tau!bodoh!geramnya ngan budak tu.die blk jumaat ni ak tenyeh2 kepala die..

nak shopping raye pon nnt mane mmpu nak beli jeans GAP da..GAP jeans is the most comfortable jeans i ever had.my father is going 2 give me just 200 for the expenses.tu kata die la..i said,'tak aci,adek blnje nak dkt 500 beli jeans etc utk raye' and he replied,'awk keje,ade gaji..' urgh!!!nk benti keje! :( hopefully u'll give me more abah..amiinnnn :D

very not in the mood.not going out anymore,unless i get a new very comfortable jeans!

life is totally full of suprises.sometimes,suprises that u wont like.walah!

*berkabung mode*

idp

went to idp dis morning wif dilos n ija.

alhamdulillah,everything went smooth.

mcm pasar lak idp td..tulaaaaa pgl lg dak2 kms yg hyper ni...hehe :P

now its clear wut we shud do next.basically nothing till nov.haha

oh and start THINKING bout accomodation there.

its expensive i tell u..haih2,wut shud i do??

on campus or off campus?

shud i stay on campus for the 1st yr or shudnt i?

adeyh,making decision is very very hard for me...

i'm used to ppl making decision 4 me,yup very dependant!

adoilaaaaa,pk2 jd pening.bek xyah pk :P

p/s:thanx to ms carmen n chua(btol ke eja) for being very informative :)

done,alhamdulillah :D

did my passport.suprisingly,the process took less than 30mins despite of the crowds..

wow,malaysia system has finally improved!i still remember when i was doing my-card..
i have 2 wait for about 2 hours for my turn to come..and all the process took almost 3 hours..u juz hv to wait n wait n wait..juz imagine.and i told to myself,NEVER lose ur ic,or else u'll end up dead meat!i'm going to have to kill my ownself 4 being a moron losing my ic!haha..

now,having the experience juz now made me think,'alah,ilang ic 4 5 kali pon x kesa :P'..hehe,of coz i exagerrated.

n now i'm proud to say,I HAVE A PASSPORT(never had one,tu jakun,haha)..

n i payed 4 only 150 :D

oh lupe lak,jmpe hid time nak kutip paspot tu balik..hadi yg perasan(omg,hadi igt name hid.terkejut!)..hehe :P

rakan2,alang2 ade paspot,jom cuti ke bandung!shopping paradise!!!(4 the girls la kot)
airasia sudey....:D

till then buhbye!muah xoxo

oh why?

from the beginning I've been avoiding you.

I asked you nothing.

I was hoping it won't be the same.

I didn't want my decision influenced by you.

But,why why why,it's the same???

you'll end up hurting me again and over again.

God,plz...show me the way~

plz change ur decision,I'm begging you.

yang dilihat

dgn nama Allah yg Maha Pemurah lagi Maha Pengasihani.

Alhamdulillah,terjadi juga blog ni.

hari ni berbuka dgn banyak gle makanan.mak ak la beria masak sbb menantu kesayangan nak dtg.tgk2 Long dtg sorang.abg zam ade kelas Auto Cad.rajin btol menuntut ilmu.padahal da jd senior engineer.huhu

time solat tarawikh tu,masyaAllah,mengantuk Allah je tau.mmg xleh salahkan setan laaa...mane ade setan pose2 ni...hehe...

tp yg sedihnya,akak ak ternampak,ade sorang minah ni,kua je dr kwsn moreh tu,tros tarik tudung kua...tau la rambut cantik,ape salahnye buka luar kawasan masjid..hormatilah rumah Allah..

waktu 2nd day pose aritu,ak masuk2 pintu masjid,laki dan perempuan rancak berbual..xde rase malu langsung..jemaah lalu lalang pandang wat dunno je..nauzubillahhh...

lepas moreh,nek keta gerak kua..lalu la tmpt sekumpulan mat2 motor yg pada pandangan mama budak2 under 18 lg..asap berkepul2,motor bising..ble keta kitorang dekat,ak pon tgkla..astaghfirullah!minah yg same yg elok pakai jubah dan tudung dgn manis,seorang diri lepak sekali dan same2 menghembus kepulan2 asap..

sedihnye hati ibu die mengandungkan die...

tatkala org len cbuk mengejar pahala bln Ramadhan,die cbuk menghulur dirinya ke dlm mulut buaya.astaghfirullah.........

org skg ni kurang rasa malunya..ye,ak pon x sempurna,tp alhamdulillah masih kenal mane yg baik mane yg buruk...

oh btw,thn ni moreh kat masjid tu sedap! :D

i think i'm putting on weight.omg,gemok!!!hahaha...xpela,last Ramadhan in Malaysia,InsyaAllah :)

testing2

my first word.